Nuevo ano

Nuevo ano
Tengo la nostalgia
De los anos passodos
Tengo a ser en Berlin
Como en diciembre 2010

Tengo a ser con mis amigos allemanes
En el sur de l'allemania

Nuevo ano
Donde son mi suenos
Cuando vuelvé partir
Cuando vuelvé vivir aqui

Nuevo ano
Tengo un ano mas
No sé cuando
Tengo el tiempo de ser con vosotros
Amigos

Nuevo ano
Cuando eschucha gotan project
Cuando penso en todos
Cuando no sé ...puedo veerte
Para dirte adio

Nuevo ano
Todos los olvidos
Todos las lagrimas
Todos los dubios
Todos las recercas

Nuevo ano
Parece differente
Pero puede ser una altra vez
Como l'ano passado


just a huge hug to my chinese friend chenbo dear i dunno what you will really do in 2013
but suerte y muchos besos para ti :*

para Lleana eso es para ti tambien :) buena suerte en miami ^^ 

some shadows behind me...

Some shadows behind me...

A kind of sketch i try to become a good photographer it is nor a longway to be one x)

Hand's shadows and black pictures...to the evening before new year ...a cooler day like in the end of the week. Today a lil' bit sunny yesterday morning was great to take some pic' I hope you'll enjoy :) my small hand x) maybe this afternoon I'll do some others...

an the small hands call me so haha

A word

A word flying...on the page
A word missing...
A word with a meaniong
A word to tell feeling

A word...express everything

Hiden feelings

Dali masterpiece

Hiden feelings
What can I do?

Hiden feelings
And the fall coming
I wait you near the window
And I don't know when you'll come

Hiden feelings
To be alone
During the snowfall

Hiden feelings
To be alone
Work done
I think to you
Near the window
When the snow falling down
Just guess when you'll be back


Hiden feelings
To be alone
And welcome the military friends of yours
Telling me you are gone
Thinking of me

What a pity !
What a brocken dream!
What a heartache!
I lost you...
But you are nor in my heart
Like the first time we met...

No worry

No worry to the brave
When the battle stop
When all is quiet
When nothing we can feel
More than peace

No worry if we left deads behind us
We will remind them all

And in the vast valley the noise are spread
We are the winners

After the battle come the time
Where all are victorious
But the deads are not by ourside
And that let a kind of unsecure feelings

Then as a lot of brave
We grabe them with all our memories
To let them go and rest in peace


fighting spirit again death around  To Emy to Cassy and to...me for one time!

Mi mundo

No sé como puedo disenar
Pero esta muy bien para mi inspiracion
No sé como dire qué una grand parte de mi trabajo
Viene de altro pays y personas

No sé como viene inspiracion
Cuando puedo haber musica conmigo
Todo las palabras vienen en mi cabeza

Musica es siempre otro camino para haber idéas
Tambien para el disenar de mis amigos
Vuelvé ser una professoressa d'arte
Pero con el destino me falta la idéa
De apprender lenguas para lenguas
Voy a ser professoressa de frances

Los viajos estan tambien
Una parte de mi vida
Y hablo mucho la lengua
Cuando soy en el pays
Y tengo muchos amigos estranjeros

Esta es mi mundo

One gift of the otherside of the ocean!

I just want to say thank you to scarlet-lleana to this mervelous portrait of me I got it in October!
But I consider that like the most wonderfull gift of the year! It is coming from MIAMI :) so...just hope to
send you ...dear lleana one poem ;) wonderfull too...I haven't the inspiration yet I hope to write it in spanish hihi ;)

Blog of scarlet!

Colored feelings

I am on a red corner ...just meet you on this zebra crossing I am falling in love of your style even I don't know you

My life stay borderline like a bleu line square maybe just a painting point in the middle of the white square

Red desire which can't be express... just the red of my chicks to signified you my reserve my shyness

Green of the leaves in the spring season the grey to the fall rain the yellow in the country in summer

the brown of my shoulders when i sunbathed in the sand

I follow my way you follow yours what is the matter if i color my life of feelings...the only thing is that i allow me to dream

It is not the end of the world

It is not the end of the world
I am happy because I have nor a lot to do

It is not the end of the world
I am happy to stay alive
I dont care of the mayas said

It is not the end of the world
I am living my days that god give me to live
I take all the good and the bad

It is not the end of the world
I am happy to belive in a better future

Con ella

Con ella vuelvé llolar
Con ella puedé esperar

Pero el adios
No pensé al adios

Con ella parece la vida differente
Con ella el camino estuvé differente

Sin ella hoy recuerdo
Todo las cosas qué me faltan
La calor del sur
La calor latina
La calor de un amiga de Espana

Con ella estuvé en andalucia
Con ella descubré la mejor vida
Con ella estuvé bien

Hoy voy a andar en Espana
Y so sé cuando poderia veerla
En su pays



para Isabel
(me falta tu calor!)

I have had to write this song

EL ADIOS
Algo se muere en el alma
Cuando un amigo se va
Y va dejando una huella
Que no se puede borrar


No te vayas todavia
No te vayas por favor
Que hasta guitarra mia
Llora cuando dice « Adios »

Un panuelo de silencio
A la hora de partir
Porque hay palabras que hieren
Y no se pueden decir

No te vayas todavia
No te vayas por favor
Que hasta guitarra mia
Llora cuando dice « Adios »

El barco se hace pequeno
Quando se aleja en el mar
Y quando se va perdiendo
Que grande es la soledad

No te vayas todavia
No te vayas por favor
Que hasta guitarra mia
Llora cuando dice « Adios »


Ese vacio que deja
El amigo que se va
Es como un pozo sin fondo
Que no se puede llenar


No te vayas todavia
No te vayas por favor
Que hasta guitarra mia
Llora cuando dice « Adios »

Gloomy days

Gloomy days
After the efforts
Energies go out
Full of fears
Full of memories

Gloomy days
After the way to be a warrior
Letting the weapons go down
And let the tears going on the sand

Gloomy days
When it is the feelings of weakness
In the time of darkness
That is called hypersentitiveness

Gloomy days
When the night are not slept
When the life remember you
All the dark time you've got

Gloomy days
When you can't speak
Of these things you hate the most

Gloomy days
Why...
Because you probably met death
Too quickly...
Maybe to fight...
To remember to those who are gone
Before you

Changing my mind

Last time I spoke about one professor at university. I changing my mind maybe I am incredibly sensitive about what people do when I build my own toughts and i consider them as  important.

Sometimes we have to be measured in our thoughts and our behaviors.....I just want to say sorry ...If my behavior sucks ...because of my bad reading of the situations...but I can't ignore what I feel ...otherweise I change my way of beeing myself...so ...I hope I will follow this way. I absolutly need her to build my way to be a good teacher...
It is me, full of misunderstanding but I am happy WE have solve the matter in such good way... Working hand in hand is more important than anything else!

Your arms around me

I dream
I dream of your arms
Your arms around me

I dream
I dream of your arms
Strong and powerfull

I dream
I dream of that time when you will come

Mathilde Blind discovery

Saving Love

WOULD we but love what will not pass away!
    The sun that on each morning shines as clear
    As when it rose first on the world's first year;
The fresh green leaves that rustle on the spray.
The sun will shine, the leaves will be as gay
   When graves are full of all our hearts held dear,
   When not a soul of those who loved us here,
Not one, is left us--creatures of decay.

Yea, love the Abiding in the Universe
Which was before, and will be after us.
   Nor yet for ever hanker and vainly cry
   For human love--the beings that change or die;
Die--change--forget: to care so is a curse,
Yet cursed we'll be rather than not care thus.

~Mathilde Blind

she was probably beautiful and cultivate she just live 50 years in the 19th century but just like this beautiful poem we can feel the art and the person itself hidding in the words

My spanish mother

She miss me hearing the sound of her land
Hearing the song of the hands
And hearing the buleria de espana

She miss me
And i remember
The time we got together

My soul wander en Andalucia
En Sevilla
I dream of tapas
I dream of spanish language

My soul wander
And remember me
My "wela"

con la musica son tus ojos dos estellas

para Isabel mi mama tengo haber un poco tiempo
para andar en bretagne so sé quando te véo 

cuando estuvé en mi ciudad 
no esta aqui 

" je me rappelle le temps passé avec toi"

Vosotros

No sé
Y a dondé
No quiero pensar
Sin vosotros

No sé
Como vosostros
Apprender

No sé
Como mis palabras
Los comprendé

I don't know
What you think
About me
And the doubts invided me

I don't know
What you understand of my words
If you can learn about me

No sé
Y dudo


to EVR


"one dude ask me you can write spanish -just a little" jeje !

A kind of unusual girl?

If I am unsual
Just tell me 
Why please I feel me so? >.<

Since a few month i've got a professor at university which make me feel unsual. Properly unsual...she let me doubt about me...eachtime I try...to make a stepforward...she stop me by behavior and probably without taking care of. I cannot say how...I just ask myself...

Somehow, I don't want to stay in such behavior...I try to let this huge gap beeing till ...I can find a solution. But I feel that really sucks...I hate when I can't share something or when people don't say something. I can't hide myself anymore even I am trying to finish my education. I am someone who give more than I receive. Maybe I give my feelings at the same time...I have no idea what the people think... what people receive from me? I just guess...? But I never had answers....

I just wanna say don't see just my behavior because I am a good actress and in reality I am différent as can be in course and at university...and I know that people just see...the first impression and not the rest. (Also professors do!) 

That is why I feel unsual ...properly unsual maybe...people...do as they don't know....? I am just angry about that fact because I don't need to hide my real face. I know that my real face is powerful more powerful that what see my professors. 

Should I do as..........I am unsual or should I let shine what I am really indeed?

75 days ink scketches scketch two

75 days ink scketches SCKETCH ONE

my tools below

What is art...that is just meaningful

The blue of klein
Just let you go though
Give what you think

A sky
The sea
The color of  a jean

A color is so meaningful
You have just to tell ...what you think

just an answer to the post of a friend just click below
 what is art?

I am walking on the street

I am walking on the street
Seeing the world before the end
What can I do
For you my dear world

I am walking on the street
Seeing people in misery
People crying

I am walking on the street
...And just guess...
Till when...
Will I survive

photographier

J'aime
Quand les gens pressés
S'arrêtent
Et m'écoutent
Leur demander
Une photo
5 minutes de pose
Une petite tof
Pour le plaisir
Voilà qui pour une fois
Je suis moi
Un bout de fille rieuse
Qui écrit
Qui fait de la photo
Laisser moi ainsi rêver


My Lomo & Me (Je Photographie Des Gens Heureux) par Olivia Ruiz

Come with me

Come with me
Around the fire
Come let gets higher
Let joy surround you

Come with me
Let see
My people
My way of living

Dance dance
Around the fire
Let come to see
What is the Romani
People

Come with me
Around the fire
Come lets rejoy together

with the song : Romanian Wind par Hans Zimmer

The love I wait in silence

(picasso drawing)

Where are you
My love
Where are you
In this world
What will be your nation
What will be your tongue
Let me find you
Let me love you

Where are you
My love
Where are you
In this world

Who are you
Who

I wander
My life need you
But I haven't met you yet
And I just guess why...

Tell Me Now (What You See) par Moya Brennan

the lucia of my friend Ileana

copyright exclusive 

your sketches give me the power to write
This lucia
Wide open eyes or shuting eyes
It is you
The way you draw her
Remind me you

This way you have
To sketch faces
Facinate me
I have not this gift
You have this gift
Like my own mum when she paint with watercolor

I am like picasso el maestro del cubismo
Or Miro

But this lucia
Is so lightening
with the eyes extremly expressive
I want to let it shine ever on ever at my desk
As a picture
To dream more and more
Of this picture which shine really like you


http://chica1665.blogspot.fr/2012/12/santa-lucia-sketches.html

ps: porfavor escribir es mi passion Ileana para ti es sketching :) you do me a favor reading my post!

Manifesto

I know my english is half good half bad

Sadly...it so...

But I realize here 

That it is not the language I hated ...

It just how I used it...

This blog give me the power

To get though the idea 

That my english wasn't good enough

To express what I am

I never get proud of what I do

But now

I exactly feel the same

A kind of freedom 

With the english

The way to be understandable

Allover the world...

Even this language I never could catch it all

In the right way

THANK YOU ALL TO YOUR SUPPORT ME 

THANK YOU TO VISIT MY BLOG !

1014 views till march this year ^^ thank you !

Where go the world

Where go the world
All is painfull
Where go the world
Do you know?
I am the poet
Of these dying world
I just see misery
But what can I do?
Only god can do something
Against the poverty
I know that some people
In my homeland
Don't want to believe in Him

Where go the world
All the things we see
Will go if you believe
This is the best you can do

Where go the world
Without hope

Where go the world
Without love

Where go the world
Without the society

Thank you to the support!

9 months and more than 1000 views and 141 poems thank you all :)

Give me

Give me
A smile

Give me
Your bill

Give me
What you want

I just hope you are happy
I hope to let you smile
I hope to let you be yourself

Smile'y

smile'y
when you gotta have stress
let me reach the sky till death
just a smile to distress

smile'y
a small face to say ya
the life is sometimes so bored
That you have to let it fun

With a smile'y
all get better ya
just a kind of way
to get crazay!

Idealistic way

Idealistic way
To tell the truth
Just with a pen and some words
Just thoughts
You can read it

Idealistic way
To dream
To express my feelings

Idealistic way
To understand the world
To tell the things
Which are speechless

Idealistic way
To understand myself

Idealistic way
Is the way to let words
On this page
Get a ride around you
To have a meaning

Idealistic way
To write something

Never be the same

I wander
I go
I come back

Never be the same
Without HIM
But the life decide to separate us

Since when I really ignore
What love is
Maybe deceive
By the way he told me the truth

I wander
I go
I come back

Never be the same
Without HIM
But the life decide to separate us

Never be the same
Without LOVE
Without DREAMS

Let me go
Where I have to go

Diversity

Diversity
Is in the city
Just open your eyes and see it

It is just in that neger
Who dance smurf
 A latino who work to you
A asian girl and the indian boy studying
A arabian kebab cooker give you your meal

Diversity
Is in the city
Just open your eyes

Let just hear music
You will hear black jazz
R&B and rap
Let just hear music
Like rock

And you tell me that racists thoughts
Are a normal thing

When will you see the reality
Of your city
We are blacks or whites
Asians or not
Just respect this melting pot

Thoughts a saturday night

Let me go
With my sword
That is to say my words
To tell and discover the world

Let me go
Winning the war
Of this world
Just to tell the truth
Just my thoughts
Just what I want to say

Let me go
With my sword
That is to say my words
To tell and discover the world

Let me say
What I see
In my land in the world
So tell me tell me
What you see
And maybe
You will find me
Me and my pen
My pains

Let me say
What I see what I feel
With my words
As a sword
To tell the world
To be the hero
With a pen and my ego

Problems of.....

I am not naive
I see your eyes
Looking at me

Let me alone
You are not my type
Let me go where i wanna go
Sorry if I hurt you
Let me do
What I want to do

Let me stay my life somewhere else
With other people

I am not naive
I see your eyes
Looking at me

And i can't bear
That behavior
I don't imagine you
As my groom

So let me alone
Let me do my life
Don't dream anymore

I just don't ask more

My Artha

Artha is my friend from Indonesia
It is special
Ya
We share a lot
Nearby...there is a friend
It is her
Ever

Artha has another name
Which means princess
Yas putry is someone special to me

Coming back from Asia
To meet me one day ya

Special dedication
To my friend
Which is currently based
In my second homeland Germany

to you my dear friend because i miss u tight!

"she said she was touched by my poems" :')

You are here

You are here
I am crazy
To think
You are the only one

You are on my mind
I am crazy
I hear the melody
Of my heart

I am in love
And I hope
you will see me
As I see you

or maybe you don't tell me
that it is an impossible love

Inspiration as positivness

Inspiration is born with adversity
I am born with creativity
In my head nothing empty
Just some huge spaces
Variables
Full of my dreams
My creation
My inspiration

Inspiration comes
With exercices
And time

Inspiration is everywhere
We have to catch it

Shadows of my heart

Letting you go
Make me feel mad
I was so happy
To be your friend
We shared a lot
But in some days you'll be home

I will loose my best foreign friend
That person I cherished the most
But what can I do to let you stay in my country

Tears come
And I can't ignore them
Because I know life won't be the same
Without you!

Just to say you goodbye my dear friend

My dear friend,

I love you so much and it is a longtime i didn't see you.
But your news of today let me feel bad
Because I know I will miss you!

We have shared a lot
You make me change my point of view
About your land!

We shared a lot...

I just guess now how to share with you
When you'll be farway

I am just sad ...to you
I am angry...about the world
That I could'nt see you one more time
Before you leave

I just want to say you
Be couragous
Be strong

Stay as you are

<3


(she is one of my best chinese friend in France, I can't believe she has no place to make her thesis! She will be back to Nanjing soon :'( no possibility to see her again before she leave my country...I am sad to loose such a good friend the life wont be the same without that sister!)

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Let me have power to fight

O God lead me help me
Give me power
To get through

Let me have the power to fight
To let my dreams come true

Give me power
Give me more faith

O God lead me help me
Give me power
To get through

Let me be wise
Let me be a good friend

My future job: teacher

Behind my copies I dream to have a good cofee
And to have a huge rest
But I have to correct these copies to next monday
I have work at university this morning
I feel me weird

I think I will make a break
....
To dream
And to go outside of my routinous tasks

Thought of the day in one picture

I am your dreams
You are mine

We just have to meet

I am the love you want
you are the love I want

Where are you?
I am here

You are there
I guess only where?

I am expected you
Maybe you want to be surprise

I am yours
If you come

I just....

(Waking up early
This morning
Typing my feelings )

I just dream
Behind my coffee

I just hope
And live just a new day

I just think
What I missed the most

I just want
That you can be near me

I just want
hug you
just to feel comfortable

I just want
you never gone so
but I am not God

I just find
power to go ahead

Charming prince

Charming prince
I never mind
But you meet me
Somewhere
In my secret garden
You will find me

No mistery
It is just the life
Which will create
Our love

I will wait you

You are here to me

you are here to me
near me somewhere
I don't know who you are
but I feel your soul coming in my life

you are here to me
I hope to meet you
I hope to find you

I just hope to open my eyes
and my heart
at the moment you will appear

Go song of Anggun

Go away broken heart there's no more space for your anger, no longer
Go away endless tears I've no patience for your sadness, I could careless
Go away far from here take all your belongings
Run as fast as you can, you won't see me crying

Go away loneliness please stop yelling my name out loud, you're not allowed
Go away wasted dreams you're never welcomed in my head, my mind's set
Go away far from here can't stand you beside me
Run as fast as you can and don't look back at me

After all those times, breathing for him
After all those lies, coming from him
After all those nights, unbelieving
After all those why's, why didn't I see
He's not meant for me

Go away desperation now's the time to leave me alone, on my own
Go away all regrets I never want to see you again, it's your end
Go away far from here and back to where you come from
Run as fast as you can away from my home

After all those times, breathing for him
After all those lies, coming from him
After all those nights, unbelieving
After all those why's, why did I fall
Why couldn't I know ?
Why didn't I see ?
Why o why did I love him ?

After all those times, now I feel better
After all those lies, I've no more anger
After all those nights, I've stopped to wonder
After all those why's, I've learnt to let you go
I have let him go

Brocken!

brocken
to know you are in her arms
brocken
to be alone thinking about you

brocken
to know that you won't be mine
but what can I do?

brocken
but strong as steal
brocken
but not hopeless
to find another one

brocken only because
I remember me
when I am melancolic

I want you!

I want you more than ever
I never want you more than now
Please don't go away
I am only passionate in your arms

I want you more than ever
In my dreams you stay
I don't know who you are?
Where are you hidding at that time
Only gods know

Let me discover you
Let me going with you
Let me staying with you
Let me love you

Remembering you

when I remember you
pain invide my heart
you're just a friend now

at that time to have speak about you
make me feel sad and unhappy

my protect my heart till another one
come into my life
but I ask myself why
I ever think to you
when I speak about love

Near you

you call me
I can't call you back
I am voiceless when I am so farway

You hope
I smile

You are in my heart
You wait me

I am a kind of
"near you"
even I am at home

to artha "missing ur call on skype"

dyspraxia dyslexia and dyscalculia what i am fighting for!

yeas and I am not known but I suffer about that so be aware if you see children with problems at school they could be all dyspraxic!

THANK YOU FOR THEM

A fairy with pencils

A fairy with pencils
Come and color my world
With pink and purple
She come from the otherside of the ocean
She give me 
A rainbox
I ask just how
She get that power to draw

Thank you dear fairy
to the wonderfull gift
you make me
By the last message you leave
On your blog!

thank you scarlet to the sketch all my friends love your work 

The answer to my previous post

 

The sketch of Scarlet a pure delight it is me absolutly I love it specially my pink glasses :)

 

29 FACES of scarlet

Dear scarlet,
your faces let me feel so much emotions that I just want to have a drawing of you one day :)
if i send you  pictures could you do that to me? could I have a portrait of me?

I know you don't know me but I love your work so these pictures should be good ...as I see it correspond to what you draw!

what you have done so ... I give you these pictures I hope to be one of your faces :)


2009/2010 selfprotrait with digital camera

2012selfportrait i look so currently with short hair :)) (soory it isnt really the good way to look but i havent find the way to restore it normaly )

Thank you soooo much!

see u

a fellow from Europe !

 http://chica1665.blogspot.fr/2012/09/lets-stop-counting-faces.html

Its the rentrée (beginning of the year)

Master year....we have to read to make our work we have to think we have to act....it is only the way to be a professor....that is why i choose to follow my studies in the french field more easy to me but in the way of teaching it is so different  specially with stangers! the thing is you have to be motivated that other things not money not fame but transmission and adaptation ! So i go to my work hoping to you a good year of work!

writting

expression
evasion
creation

WRITTING

saved me about death
saved me about depression

WRITTING

savage
disorder
cristalizing

WRITTING

A mi manera

no dice mi dolore
la tierra la dice para mi
no tengo palabras
para dire
que tu mi manca
que soy trista

no puedo pensar en ti
sin haber lagrimas
pero la vida se va
sin ti
sin tuya presencia
sin tuya voce

no me diga que la realidad
es oltrament porqué no sé
dire la verdad
mi corazon muerto
no hacer tempo de te dire adios
no me guesta hablar de mis suffrimientos
pero es la solucion para vivir sin ti
abuela

heart's Shooutttt

The life is sometimes
Like deep dark-sea when people leave us
When people died
When people leave us with memories
But as I read somewhere we have to go ahead
Not to suffer too much
Inside we bleed
Outside we are strong
Maybe you can't understand
Till you loose  someone
She was too me a pillar
She was a strong woman
She lived the second world war
She is where i come from


Grand' pa died before i was born
And i ever have had her as model
I have her in my heart
Proud to be of the seed
I want to be a strong woman
I want to be a modern woman
Yeas as she war
Proud proud
To study to be a teacher
As she for herself wanted
 So what you want
Others do
And stay as you are
Strong and yourself 

para scarlet :) "nos tenomos riqueza" we are wealthy

Estuvé una nina viene de cuba estudié el ingles en escuela no esta facil de dire qué mi ingles estuvé como los otros
Now i paint a lot :) i am now a mum but inside me i have bad memories cause i am like a reported piece
i am not american my roots are in cuba mum spoke a bad english but i write my blogs to convince me that i am valuable or maybe not just to have fun ;)... some friends guess why spanish is my language so they have the answer

Crossing point of you

I am from france i never love english i spent time to UK to renew my level i feel the same as you my language of heart is german don't tell me why maybe because that was more concrete out of what the others do anti-conformism ! english represents to me the only language that people use to communicate when they can't speak german i am freaky yea i love a language hard to learn and so ugly to hear but i don't care my mother tongue is french but i really love it but sometimes feel lost in the deep sea of American way of life
i am the anti-conformist girl who never love making the same things like the others replying that french is the language of the poet of the politic in Europe till in the russian language german is the language of the european economy ... just to say mix culture mixed lands mixed people it is so mervelous ! (i want my children mixed :))

Gentle Man

If I dare telling you I am a gentle man...what do you think ? Better going away just fool you is what I want. Don't be so naive ...Do you think I can be so gentle as I pretend to be. I am a shark a wolf ...take care of you dear sheep I can be any where... Open your eyes and try to recognise me who I am ...is the question.
Maybe I work in a bank I am your neibourgh ...seach but you don't find me ... I can take costumes and scenarize what I want to be ....why because I am a worse man ...desguise in gentle man ... I am thinking your are also like me... tell me why I should think the contrary....?

Signed GENTLE MAN!

Like heroes ...

If I see fire I jump to save your  life
If I heal it is to try saving a life
If I write it is to free your mind when you read
If I say the truth it is to not lying
If I try to be your friend it is because you are one

If I am thinking I am worse you can tell me it not the case
If I am by your side in hard moments you will be there to me too
If I give you my shoulder to cry sure you will give you back yours

If someone help you what will you do?

We are all heroes
Because human need others humans
Like heroes for the others we are

Asking

This is my letter to my children...
I was in this world unsecure

I let time surrounded me
And let me dye
All my words are my testimony

I hope you won't be deceive
My work was to express that the others wouldn't express
I leave all my friends my family
With any regrets
Live
Grabe me under a tree
And write an epitaph
Then go and live free

written with these video Hans Zimmer Time (inception movie) LIVE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4XxaWXsO78

Its also to those we have lost and we have nor in our hearts !

With music all come in mind (dreaming is collapsing sountrack of Inception) : "if the world end"!

 Please lets  run the video soundtrack and then read

I rund run run because all will collapse and to save my life I have no other choice what will bring me that?
Already scared but I run somewhere somewhere but where exactly ? Lost yeas surely hanging on to my life...
what should I do otherweise? Just a moment to protect me and pray god to be safe then back to the run all buildings get so scary having stumbling all destroying like during the 9/11 I don't see anything else ...but I run ....run run My family was slept before I began to run and find a way to protect myself some people where dead ...my eyes wouldn't see anymore all that we see now its like a nightmare without end...
Let me be safe God! I hear noises but no time to see I find a street more quiet and try to find a place to stay and recover a few minutes  I don't know how i find this group of people ...they were totally lost some crying some others were injured but we all together want to survive we must go out this town by any means
the day after the beginning of the collapse we were outside of the city I haven't had regrets to let that city behind me I go in the right way after a better futur I ran and I am sure I will find it....nothing matter I am safe....

Its just what I feel when I hear the soundtrack of Inception a mervelous film and the music was made by Hans Zimmer one of my preferate composer of movie's soundtracks 

Ghost of the past

The memory of you come in my mind
Like a Ghost to protect me
Against him
Even I know that you are now married
Nothing none will break me one more time
After loving one and only time 
Just to assure me you are fine
Just to assure me my battle against him
Isn't in vain
To grabe my teenage time
To forget who I was
To build what I will be

The memory of you come in my mind
Before I go to sleep
Like a dream a ghost of my past
Like I know you never can be mine
He won't have me too
That is what I promise you

W H Y ?

W H Y
all friends can smile
beeing comfort

W H Y
all can find love and happiness

W H Y
all are simply them

W H Y
am I so hesitating?

W H Y
can I be myself ?

W H Y
must I say you NO?

W H Y
should I ever fight?

W H Y
tell me W H Y

W H Y
W H Y
so many questions and no so much answer
....the life of a human is made of many questions
that only God can answer

Become like tiger

I become like tiger
When you look at me
I tell me why you choose me
The thing the most unbareble thing is people
Fake to understand you are in love with me
I want to hide myself when I see you
I am crazy I want to beat you
I am like a tiger
I am so nervous when I should be with you
I can't bear all people telling
He is kind and funny
What the F. if i can't bear it
I just want to male my life free


with the vaccines -Tiger blood song

Just telling you

The truth
Is that I telling you my feelings
And you don't seem to understand my will
So that let me be angry
To let you think or believe I am made for you
only with your eyes you terrify me
What must I make
Just going farway from you
And pray you can forget me

Take it

Take time
Take joy
Take the life as it is given by God

Take the moment to stop yourself and see mothernature
Take time to see your children growing
Take time to smile
Take time to give and you will receive
Take care of the others

Take joy in every moment
Take joy in what you do
Take joy in your ways

Take the life and try to not mess it up
Take the life with philosophy
Take the life to say behind god

I take it!

Selfreliance after loosing someone intitled: "Behind you"

( I wrote this to forget to remember to honor people I loved the most I hope getting understanding by all
it is just to gain selfassurance !)

Dear grand-ma'
I don't know how to explain but I have to.
Now I really need you and you are gone. I am deeply upset I told mum last year before my depature to Germany :"mum she will dying I will be there". All was happening as I told. Intuition bad feelings and thoughts,
No, I knew you was ill and I didn't want you suffered too much.
If you could know that I follow my studies as postgraduate you would be proud of me ! You told me why a practical diploma in two years? Granma just because I needed to grow up before going to university!

I just remember last year this febraury 28th 2011 getting these mail saying you were dead...that hurt me nor now...to remember this beach the sand the coat the pain ...our family united ...I was so upset to be the only one to grabe you as grand children and the youngest cousine of the family coming from Berlin. Now you rest in peace with grand pa' I never knew. I never guessed how that was painful to grabe him. I never ask you anything about our family's secret. I want to ignore this pain but I know it's not a good idea. I have to face my pain and I have to tell you goodbye.

Behind you I swear to be happy in my life and to do things you can be proud of.
After this line I have to say you goodbye and thank you to told me NEVER GIVE UP!

The mountains

You walk
Lost in your reflection
Staying or going

Your heart say staying
And the mountains nearby
Are colored in red and blue
Colors of sunset

Every time you speak about
Your return home my heart is hurt
 I just shut my eyes
And see this sunset

I think about you
your life there
And remember  the moments i got with you

Our dreams
Life's crossing
I just want to remember
The time we got together
Behind a sunset in the mountains



To my dear Chenbo we know both will missing :* :*

Missing!

 

Old ID pictures hanging on my wall grand ma' and grand dad (dead before i was born) nearby my own picture because we can't forget those we love 

Miss grand ma' :'(

Pain

Pain let you down
After it you are more stronger
Pain let you down
But a friend is ever with you
Pain let you down
And push you high up
Pain let you down
But He will give you back joy

Ein Brief fuer K.W

Tausend mal
Habe ich es versucht...

Jetzt ist es Zeit dir zu erzählen
Ich hatte Freunden
Sie waren ein echter Schatz fuer mich
Und Sie sind umgezogen
Ich habe gedacht dass,
Ich ein Loch in meine Herz hatte

Dannach habe ich gereist
In ein Land dass du gut kennst
Und da habe ich gelebt
Dann musste ich nach Hause zurück kehren
Aber  ich habe sie verlassen
Glaub' mir ich weisse genau was passiert
Wenn du vermisst deine Freunden
Ich weisse genau was passiert
Wenn du weinst nach schlechte Gedanken

Ich wollte nur diese Linie schreiben
weil du wie meine andere Freunden bist
Ein echter Schatz

fuer  KW ich habe dich lieb' ich werde immer da sein <3

One of my favorite songs: tell me why M.I.A

Calling you

Calling you yeas
You girls and womens around the world
A fist high in the sky

I am born in a land when I have
Rights to be free to choose to be me
Its for you those are ignore
Who surffer silently
All over the world
I understand we are a POWER
The world see your will
Don't matter how

My power is to write
To tell what I have to say
And calling you saying
 Stay proud head up
Fist high in the sky
I am a child of the human rights
I am born about 300 years after in the same land
That we call FRANCE

I am calling you
Saying
If someone harass you
Someone betrayed you
Fight the fist high in the sky
Be proud to be yourself
Because you bring children in the world
Because you are the futur of the Humanity
A figure of the kindness
But none can have not respect you

So I am calling you
Saying head up
Fist high in the sky
Because you have your place
And none have to spoil you!

Soory

I beg you pardon
Pardon to not have telling you the truth
That day I wasn't fine
To tell you
I didn't love you

I must have doing it
But I am absolutly sure
You wouldnt have an heartbreak
I know what you feel
I felt the same to someone
With no return
I know that is painfull
I am absolutly free without love

I hope you will understand!

My 19 centimeters' scare

It is my pain and my suffering I wanted to express I am not a drawer but I love using colors. I really have scares on my body that sometimes let me sad sometimes I remember I am alive because of this operation in Emergency after a car accident. I thank god to be alive and to gave me the power to recover after 3 months nightmare in hospital and to get my Alevel. Two years ago I got money but I don't cost anything I am a life its most expensive that all the assurance gave me. My life is priceless ... my scares are the testimony of that!

To be a good poët

To be a good poët you have to feel pain in your heart (almost one day in your life) and to feel empathy
after that you have to choose words to express your suffering. In the moments of peace you will give one day to your friends and beeing happy to get though your own pains to help them!

I got my postgrade :D

I am postgraduate OMG yesterday many good news come to me ^^ the postgraduation and the theoritical exam of my driving lesson!(July 18th) I hope i can have it only because my car wait for me (grand ma's car I am lucky) ;) I hope to get it !!

I walk

I walk
Walk on the riverside
this riverside where all my dreams are hanging
Hanging in these river
these river which end in the ocean

I walk
Walk and don't find my path
My path will come
Come to be true
True sharing with someone
Someone kind and loving
Loving me

Flying love

The love fly
Sometimes it is like a lullaby
A fairytale which end with tears

The love fly
Hurt and then it is solved

Love is like wind
Which ever come
And go

But one day you will catch it
Because the life bring wind
Whenever and whatever we need

If write

If I write it is for you
To help you to endure
Nothing can heal your heart
Hurting by love
But showing kindness
It's the best thing I can do to you
To give you the power to go ahead
To have a smile

To you

June's award to the poem Love hurt ect

 Dashboad say : 13 views plus 2+ from Google thank you

 http://ecrireautrement.blogspot.fr/2012/06/love-hurt-ect.html

No way to dream

I dreamed
But I can't fullfill what I plan

I dreamed
But I can't say if I plan something

I won't dream anymore!

Hesitating

I hesitate what to do I havent the results to go to master and I am really stressed.
I am so stressed that I hesitate to believe that I can have a place in my university
and I am not sure that I can follow my studies any more. I am really angious and
I ask me where is my way?
I hope I can find it ...but I am not sure of nothing. :(

European soccer cup : Semi final Germany versus Italy

Power to fight

I am not like Ali
But I have the power to be me
To express myself
To fight against the life

I just get a fist with my words
I am proud to be that unknown poet

I ever fight against me
Writting my feelings

I never get down
Without a thought
To those who are empowered by my words
I thank God to give me freedom
To use my mind to reflect
To open it and have some respect
To those who hasn't power anymore

I just get a fist with my word
And I will use it till the end
'Cause the life goes on even pains

Waiting an answer

Today I am stressed for one reason at university they decide if I can be postgraduate in french as foreign language field. I know that year wasn't a huge year (really a soso year) but I hope to do better to my postgraduation. I am able to do that! I love teaching and I want to live abroad as a single woman ! Nor two years and then work!! God that will be so challenging and also so interesting ! How to teach my mother tongue as a foreign language that is a challenge! In my familly the women till my grand ma we have that in blood. Grand ma dreamed to be a teacher but the school at that time was really expansive to be a primary school teacher. My mum assist a teacher in a special class where the children have many difficulties to learn how to read or count (call in french CLIS). I want to teach young adults in a professional way and also maybe adults who need to learn french to work! Since 3 generations we have that as vocational way maybe others have one profession in familly! My bro work as mechanics and mum told me that someone in familly did too!

Reassure a friend!

Don't juge those who are down
They have power to surprise you
They are strong enough
But they think they aren't

I am sure you have one friend
Who ever be depressed
Know that all could have that one day
Just tell him he can do it!

Pariser Platz: Black and Black answer

Pariser Platz: Black and Black: I'm here alone without anything I'm sit down on the floor all is black in the air there are nothing on my way I begin to suffer i have...

You get to be black
You have to be strong
We a friends nearby you
I know exactly what disturb you
But I will be by your side
I don't let you down
I know what you live
Your are strong small sister
You will go though

<3 <3 sam je t'aime tu le sais sans toi ce serai pas pareil

Bailla conmmigo

Give me you hands
And bailla conmigo

I love when you dance
You are not the same man
Don't stop to me

Just give me your hands
And bailla conmigo

Let me be your love
Let me stand by your side
Let me be me
With you

Give me your hands
And bailla conmigo

As all say love can be
Demonstratein simple move
Like in South america

Tell me you love me
Give me you hands
And bailla conmigo

Today i made my first video on youtube!!

I smile with my friend Dian and I made my first youtube video but that was a real adventure!
Dian said to me so cool hahaha I have had so much tremolo in my voice I need to have more experiences of youtube vids.

To Dian happy happy day :))))) june sis ^^

A song remind me you

I saw you with her
You cannot imagine
How I was surprising
And so uncomfortable

All my memories were coming into my head
Now a song can remind me how I loved you
I think none will replace you
Maybe I deny that love wasn't for me
Maybe I loved you too much time
But that protected me from all what I could do
To myself
Loving you was the best thing in my life
And I thank god to all he gave me in compensation
Friends Travels Happiness
Forgetting you wasn't easy
But now I am satisfied to what I did

Now my life is free


To B "I wish you the best with your wife"
Hearing I miss you from Coldplay

Grand ma'

2 years you are no more
You miss me a lot
Sadly I did see
When you were by my side
That you was so important
Now tears come when I think to you
And I know no one with replace you

IF you dare love me hear that song its all about me and you!

Free Free Free

Free Free Free
I am free
To be me

I don't care if you see me
If you love me
I will resist till my real love come
You are just a friend
Don't look at me so

Because I am Free
Free Free
To be me

I am walking
Nearby you
I see you like a friend
Not as a lover
Would you understand
That I am not to you?
Would you understand
That I want to live somewhere else
As in our Homeland
Please forget me
Please let me be free
If you love me

Because I am Free
Free free
To be me



TO E.   
"god I just want to hide don't touch me with your eyes guy I have no intention to love you...."

Guessing too much !

Sometimes
I feel sad guessing god
If my decisions are the best in my life
After seeing back
I say to myself yeas
What I did bring me things
That I never expected before

What a mess when I ask me too much questions

Love hurt ect!

Love hurts ect
part of life
make you strong as steal
Love matter burn mind and soul

Love hurts ect
But sis what make you more powerful
Is like a treasure
If you don't battle
Love will give you hurts ect

Stay like you are
Stay my funny friend
Stay who you are

Because Love hurts
Give scares
But we have always the head up
Proud
Proud
To be someone !!!

To my kristyn don't worry

Touch my heart now

Come dear
Come
Let me love again
Don't wait to long

Come dear
Come
Let me love you

Touch my heart now and forever

I feel so lonely
So hopeless
I can't no more beeing myself without love

Come dear
Steal my heart
And I will be yours 

Make it carefully

To be confident with the other
We must to make it quietly

To be good friend
We must have time
We must share a lot
We must not deceive eachother

I never think all we did will be brocken
And I consider you are right doing so
Because Friendship need time to grow

to 杨彦娇

Please do it !!

Pariser Platz: Kingdom of my heart

Pariser Platz: Kingdom of my heart:

Tribute to my friend and sister sam thank you dear 

342 views later after 62 posts 3 months posting here

Following the river

Peace endless peace
I can feel it
When I follow the river
Trees water farway from the noise of the town
Let me dream
I smile having the feelings that
All my sorrows are away
I sing along songs with people
Because I know water
Is the most precious gift of the world
I thank god to have in my town two rivers


Because my university is nearby the Loire river and i love walking there :)

This piece of the 3rd symphony of Beethoven called EROICA inspire me to make a new booklet

 (Hong Kong Chinese Orchestra EROICA 3rd Symphony of Beethoven)

Writing but without music impossible to me. I am a youtube user and one day I discover that
reorchestration of the master piece of Beethoven 3rd symphony EROICA that gave me a idea to a new poems booklet. I hope to release it this fall :) wish me luck !!

The myth most beautifull Love film I ever watched

This film is made of flash back btw nowadays and the past because of a medaillon that jackie chan characger find
 the spirit of the movie is esthetical and around love.

Must be watch!!

I dedicate this song to K.W

Just ...a sign of you

Sometimes I wish a sign of you
Where and who you are
Only God know the time the hours when you will come

Sometimes I wish just a sign
To love again

Maybe you are near me
But I don't see you
Maybe you are there

Writting to you

As you ask me I will follow this way no matter what happens in my life
Cause I know you read all  what I post here
And you feel I understand you
I not only the laughing girl you know
I also try to be loyal and nearby my friends
That is why I will go on
And write because I need it too


To K.W sweetheart hold on !

Walking on the street

I am walking  in some streets I use to go
I see you I find you cute
But your girlfriend is by you side

I am walking somewhere on this street
And I find me so stupid
To be without goals

Walking in some streets I use to go
I loose myself
Crying after love

But there are so much things to do
Somewhere else

No motivation

I am not motivated since these last few days WTF really I feel me really depressed not in my head but in my body. Cure all must be the solution caring friends ok but ...what the matter if I think I am nothing (really bad bad thoughts) I forget to move to act to behave. A friend of mine told me why are you not taking part of our talk ...we were about 12 people in the same room. I just reply to him because I don't say nothing...I want to be quiet (normally I am a talkative person ) and observe the others acting. My friend give me a eye blick what means :' I understand you are not going well'. I just try to check what I am what I ever want to be and what I will be. Creepy isn't it? 25 years old and nor in the teenage crise ...that is hard to cope with ...so my lack of motivation remind me who I was 7 years ago : Fragile, dark minded and with the feelings none can understand me! God it is really hard to go through that. But maybe you can understand what I mean in that post!

Crossing the road

I have had this feelings that the life is this long way
But not so long when there is  a crossing
And new people to walk with

Some others met before miss me a lot
But all time when come back
They are with me

That is why I love the crossing in my road

That is the way I ever think

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Darkest side of myself

I ever hid the part of myself where weakness are the most visible. Don't ask me why. Maybe because
I hate to have it. Surrounded by my own perception of the reality I forget easily that friends go trough the
weakness of their friends. They ever understand and never judge. They are here in case of you need a caring attention to weep or to say all what comes in your mind. I remember some of my friends just hearing me sharing a lot with me at high school. I never find that after... But they are by my side they know how I am how I was ...our friendship was the best things I ever had there are nor here ...in my LIFE to help me to protect myself of my darkside

TO Aude and Audrey vous êtes toujours là pour moi je vous adore <3