Friday, June 13, 2014

let me go


Images of travelers on my mind
Sadness engulf my heart
I'm prisoner

I want to go far away
To find peace and calm

Images of foreign countries
Give me a shoot of freedom

I just want to go
I was to yield
I am bad but I don't know how to tell it
So intense and deep
So hard to say I get enough of all

Let me go
Let me travel
Let me free


Thursday, June 12, 2014

my English garden

My english garden is
The place of all possible

I try to imagine it and I find peace in my heart
I know nothing disturb this peace
I have around me friends books
A place to be
A place to dream

I just keep it in mind when I am sad
I just hope in this way

In my English garden you can find
A balancelle
A table and some chairs

A small place where there are a fountain
And some lotus
Some trees in the background
And the lighting of the sun in a morning


Remember..


Remember as Perec said...
Remember the last time you smile
Remember the last time you enjoy sun

Remember the time past the present
To construct your future

Remember....

Sunday, June 1, 2014

When a friend spoke and save my life




(Real part of my life that happened to me last April!)

That was on a Sunday evening. I didn't met my friend as we have settled so she called me.

Before hanging on, I was surprised who was calling ? It was her. We get a 45 minutes call (which is a lot!).

I found peace after this.

At that time I was so discouraged sad and frustrated. During pur talk she spoke about her try to kill herself and...that was an electrochoc. She told me it was a bad idea to try.

I have to thank God who send me this friend of my road! I couldn't bear the deep sadness of my heart and I just wanted to dye. This is my way to say help me! I cannot support this pain anymore! And...as a miracle what I tried to say with other persons worked...she just heard me...without saying a word...without judgment...and I felt understood.

Some days ago I realized that while writing her letters. She helped me to heal myself!

I understand why I feel next to her even she could be my old sister! I don't know her a lot...I just feel things ache in her life! Slowly, I will discover...all.

I just wanna say her in my mother tongue:

"Merci de m'avoir parlé ce dimanche là ! Je me suis sentie à l'aise pour te dire les choses, tu m'as sauvé la vie et tu m'as aidé à me battre à nouveau!
Je te promet de toujours t'écrire mes lettres, je te promets de rire et de me reconstruire pour être ton rayon de soleil quand tu auras besoin!"