In my heart

In my heart there are
Doubt's
Tiredness
Anxiousness

In my heart
There are feelings of weakness
And of ineffectiveness

In my heart
There are bad and dark things
I forgot what it was to be so sad
Unhappy

All get a price!

I used to walk under sun after rains shower

It was warm and delightful

Creation is here to remember 

That god is almighty 

And strenghed us with small thing like a river or a sunrise

Catching all this gave me the power to sleep well

And to enjoy life :-) 

All I need now is to fight one more time!

El ritmo latino

Just discover what is cumbia andina with this groupe chicha libre! I can say that till my tender age I used to hear some andin groups and love specially the music even my spanish is not good.
The lyrics I choose are those of el borrachito its a story of a man in love and alone he drink too much because is suffer too much.

El borrachito

Paso mis días triste y borracho 
Pensando solo en ti 

Sé que tu ya no me quieres 
Chica, chica presumida 

Trato de olvidarte y no consigo 
Por eso es que me tomo todo el vino, 
Quisiera olvidarte quisiera olvidarte 
Por eso es que vivo en la cantina 

CORO: 

Borracho, borrachito 
Paso mis días solito 
Borracho, borrachito 
Tomando vino tomando vino

Its the whole album but what a delicious one :) I enjoyed it till the end.

Cumbia+ l'été indien+reprise de Joe Dassin = un délice ahhhh :D et en français :D :D

Believe 1000 time

I just remember
Last time you told me
BELIEVE

I tried to do so
I will try ever
Just to find a real purpose in my life

The time
Is coming to be real adult
Believing with maturity
Believing with reality

What I have done
I regret nothing
Only want to do in a whole
No regrets

Just finding a new way
While you are in the dark
While you are in the dark

I just feel angiousness
Tireness
Only want to give up sometimes
I am not so strong as I can appear
I am human who want to stop to believe

All my friends are away
I have the feelings all goes wrong
But in real it isn't

I say to myself
Believe 1000 time
If you find it necessary
Never give up
Only change your way

Power

Power
To not take a game over
Power
To stop anger

Power
To get peace

Power
To get voice
To get self-esteem

Power
To give the best

Power
To remember

Power
To not beeing blackminded so long

Power
To believe even life is hard

Power
To be weak
To be strong at the same time

Power
Power
Nicht mehr Sauer
Nicht mehr Sauer

Aber nur Stolz auf was war schon gemacht

Surrender

Surrender

Only care about yourself
Remember life has good and bad times

Surrender
Saying I have done what I could
Saying I have enough courage to get through hardship
What make me weak make me stronger

Surrender
Wishing to have others things to create
Wishing to help people as you can

Surrender
To get peace of mind
To get reliance
Even you get now tears

Surrender
Is maybe the best way to feel humble
To give priority to other things
To operate changes
To find new views

Nor to fight

One more time
I realize that I will fight
To finish my studies
To Begin a new year
To Having fun

One more time
Is my question
Why to fight?
What is a purpose of what I did before?

As my mum just said me this evening
All what you learn is usefull
All what you've done as a meaning

But I don't see the meaning
Not anymore
Only bad news fighting and bad news ever and ever
And the feeling that won't hold on a longtime

My only strengh is my creativity
My arts my words
It let me expect more of the life

I want to wish more but...
Wishing more will probably let me down
I want to go through hardship
Even if that mean probably beeing in a routine

I will ever have my words
I will ever have the colors...
I will ever have the quiet time with all that

Maybe I seach too much things
And maybe the greatest
Life never let you do the best choice
But only more or less the one you can support

Blanking...and??

I ignore what will happen
What I know is
The life goes
And if I don't catch the quiet moments
I will die too early

I spend time to write
Like a deep breath
In some moments I refused to write
Hards things can't be said with words
I hurted myself to do so

Sometimes I got blank
But that was solve more or less

Love was my first source of inspiration
Life give me lessons
Family gave me power to be optimist

My life
I want to live it fully
Without regrets
With poetry
With feelings

Even it can't be hard


Answer to http://melodiesinthesand.blogspot.com

Reflection

Today I feel quiet
No stress only a kind of excitation
I feel my life going in a better way
I feel deep breathing give me power
I almost travel in the way of my dreams

Some teachers told me I have had to believe
In hard time in my life
My close desire is coming true
I want also to be one

If she can be there by my side
She could be proud of me

Let the past there and go ahead tell me a small voice in my hears
Maybe all my life is just a battle but I often win
That why I call myself warrior
Warrior never loose only go through the hardships
Tell that not all time all will be wrong

just to you my dear friends

I read that in Spanish and find that poem beautiful I wanted to share it with you. Its dedicate to someone special my best friend who is currently based in Berlin and also to you (if you can understand Spanish)

http://www.poemas-del-alma.com/creo-en-ti-amigo.htm

Creo en ti mi pequeñita hermana mi manca muchooooooo creo en ti en tu forzza y cualidades. Te veo en Berlin cuando puedo besitooooo!!!

My world collapsed

My world collapsed

But I am alive

I try to care about little things to warm up my heart

Only for a change

I want to be a good warrior but I am weak

My world collapsed

And Let me really upset

And that remind me the time where I was a teen

Through hardship my friends were here to me

Now there are somewhere else making their life

I have the feelings my life step up

A friend told me I was a woman a real young woman

I was surprised he told me so as he knew my life let me stucking on a corner

Love don't come working no on my studies 

Alone yep but that don't mean I have no values

My friends miss me my life get wrong and I doubt 

My world collapsed 

And my heart let me be sad

If I ever heard it I couldn't be here anymore

I think you readers can understand what I say

Because everyone get hardship in life

Colors and feelings

Hope is blue like the dreams spread in the sky
Doubt is dark like the sadness that sourround sometimes the heart
Love is red like the roses to saint-valentin's day
Joy is yellow like the light of the sun
Green is the way when there is serenity
White is like the tissue you use to dry your tears

All feelings have color to each one
Who possess the way to make some poetry

Thoughts

Nothing else to do just let the life lead you where there are opportunities. Keep smiling stop dreaming let the routine surround you. Taking time to reflect to accept the reality as it is. Turn your back to the things you loved even that means to get a strong reliance. Not fight anymore, nothing else, no play, no dreams, nothing...

Only you walking on the borders river of the Loire in a kind of smog...smog in our mind and the feelings you have no will anymore. You have called ...maybe in the desert ....because you have no perspectives. You try to turn up the light...is that what you want dear me? Is thtat what you really want? All is messed up now...hard to get self reliance...maybe you reader can understand what I mean...or?

Now my body say yes you get reliance to such things....only by getting tears. God create it to help us to express what we can't express with words. I only fight against depression it is probably depression I think we have in life almost once that feelings deep feelings to get no values in some situations...I can't tell you why maybe because I feel me so disgusting and search solutions which aren't in reality...even I am courageous sometimes I feel life hope from me too much as I can give...in time strengh ...

Maybe you think reading me...that I am crazy to think so but facing the reality its is too hard without help...real help maybe the only one who can help me is up invisible and observe me suffering...and always answer me..!! So he will...doing it for sure....only  to that I can believe getting faith....

I only play a master piece

I feel dying inside
Outside i try To shine
I weep silently
I haven't enough strengh to fight

I play a great peace
Where all is fake
I am only small weak and not self confident

My feelings are so deep that I can't eat
Behind my smile and jokes aren't the real me
Deeply sad maybe depressive
Full of dark kohl on my eyes
I am turning back to my teens age
Where I was shut and tormented
Only on black clothes...
Romantic piece which come back ten year later

Fucking me my real fucking me is back ow god fuck!!