Doubts and harsh feelings

I know I am powerful with my word
I just express my hate
I just guess why I trust people too much

It's a hard thing to be loyal
When people are not

I feel that I can trust anyone
And beeing a good friend....
But maybe I am a real one
I'm must lost

Thinking to a friend

I remember the time past with you
And I know you go your way
People do what they do its their choices
But losing you was the bad things I live right now

I found in you a trusted friend
And that will remain the same if you come back

I am certain of my believes
But I won't blame you
All we can make mistake

Nor darker than before....

Deepest dark mind
Blowing friendship

And the feeling to be guilty
Hard to fight when a friend isn't anymore by your side
Only wandering thoughts
And the bitter feellings you are not a good friend

Even though the life goes on
But having dark pain in your heart ....
Just saying why?

Hard to let a friend go!

It is hard to let you go...my friend
I take this way
You take the other way

I don't want to leave you
But you have done your choice
I've done mine

It is hard to loose you like this
I understand that you felt alone

I understand that I wasn't a good friend
I couldn't hear you too busy

I won't juge you
Only saying my pain to see
You going away

Soften Pains

Soften Pains
When people are giving up their dreams
When they get tears or fears
Good friend come to give you one hand
Or just hear you

Soften Pains
When you pray God to give you the patience
And the power to go ahead

Soften Pains
When you try to smile
When you try to feel comfort in life
While you think its over

Soften Pains
When you give without waiting something in return
When you get smile of a friend
When you ...begin to feel better

Don't come around me

I don't care
I don't care

What you feel to me
Is not what I want
I consider you as friend
Not as lover

Could you understand me?
Could you let me make my life alone?

Its not because we have the same age
Some interests in common
That we are made to eachothers

I can't telling you
I feel like your object

How you behave
With me
Make me mad...

I just want you to understand...
That I am not to you!

How I come back to life....

When I felt bad...
When I believed I was already dead...
I came back to the real life

I went through death
But I am miraculously back
I was 19 years old about....
That was in 2005

I got a scare...19cm on my skin
Just in the stomach and intestins area...
I suffered from this
But that was the only way to cure my injuries...
In that time I was depressed...
None couldn't understand me...
Going through death early...
Can be destroying...your selfestime

Amazingly I called her...before...
Now I won't call her at all

But now...I am alive...
Sometimes stress by driving a car...
I forgot to tell you...
My death come from a young driver....
On a bridge...at night the 20th december...
I passed my holidays at hospital...

That was the worse nightmare ever...!