My heart

My heart
Don't tell me anymore that you love

My heart
You are foolish to beat deeply

My heart
You think I cannot control you
But I will find happiness if you are quiet

Who care....

I feel disconnected of the people I love the most.

Far from them in a bubble unable to say the feelings I have.

Most of the time I smile to them without any real reason.

Cries on my chicks when I am alone.

What a mess what frustration what a living far from good emotions.

May some understand my words
And some others not
Who care?

Take rebons

Maybe the life aint easy

But that make me in steal

People and friends admire my ability

To take rebons like a surfer take a wave

But sometimes I need peace and smile 

Beyond all my smiles some cry saying help

I know people think saying it is the most stupid thing to do

But I don't care of gossips

I don't care of people think

I have to say it or if not I will dying

Get enough

I feel 100 time  more than normal people specially when we speak about emotions.

I burry them in me feel inside without saying a word. I sometimes feel lost and I dont wanna live.  Hypersensivity is something you can cure with mess... You only have to  say you are so and a knowledge the time when it comes.

I write some gothic poems and read gothic books like pauline from dumas. I felt like this heroin slowly dying try to fight to what get sense for her. I do as well tough time are nor on my way but I wanna have peace and happiness. But nothing come... Only despairs remain deep. That hurt too much I do my best to get smiles even I know my heart ache. But it is foolish to behave so...

What can I do?

I dont see me like I am in reality and some of my friends try to show me the way I am. But failure let me angry and very sensitivity.  I lost and lost again... What should I do to recovery to find me back?

Life is the key

Life is the meaning
Life is the key

Having Good friends in time of trouble
Having nor the will to stay alive
Having the right to be
Having  the right to breath and smile

Life is the meaning
Life is the key
When you search to get happiness
But struggle to find it

What I want

Reaches affection 

Reaches love and hapiness

Is this too much to me? 

I want your arms 

I want your soul

But you are not real 

You are just a dream 

I feel so sad

Doubting about me a hundred time

Saying why while staying in the fog

Saying I am to old to play love again

I feel not feminine

I feel not so lovable 

Only a human being lost in the love's sea 

Love

My heart beat rang the time
Where love is back
But I don't want to make mistakes

He is older than me
He make mistakes
Am I ready?

I feel that one can love me
Breaking thoughts inside my head
And a woe I do to God will ended soon

Why do I love his daughter like my sister?
Why do I hesitate that much?

Love
Love letted me broken

Why should I trust tQhis one more time?