Clic clac

Clic clac

I get a move back

when you attack 

protect me was my preriority in life

Clic clac

going not back never be back

I forgot to shut the door

but you did ignore

what you have done...

Clic clac 

I get a move back

a silence a sentence 

I go

I shut the door 

And ...I feel the peace of doing something right

Hard thoughts...that none can share....... just when they loose someone

When you miss someone specially when this person is dead ...it is the hardest feelings to express. Sometimes it give you the right to remain silent or to weep...only because we are human and it is hard to live with the memories... of the past. Sometimes sadness can surround those who remember their dead one... it is hurtfull so hurtfull that I understand .......that you can remain still or silence............ :*

To Artha Rachma Samantha and Catherine

Hurting to think about you

Hurting......
To know that she is yours
I dreamed about you
How sally I was
You will stay a friend
Maybe nothing new will happend in my life
I can't believe in love

That is hurting me nor now
I loose my confidence
I loose all that make me
To know you give your heart to someone else

Wandering soul

He comes back in my mind
I am crazy
He can't be to me

Like that... I don't believe in Love

I hate people in love
I hate myself thinking of him

My heart wander guessing why...my love...is gone with another......

Discover

I feel ever surprise of what we can learn of the others. Just sharing and see how it's building you. I did with a lot of people..and learn a lot of them....I have so much memories with people! I realize how much they are precious to me.......and they all said I am precious for them!

Ganz nah von meine Freunden....!

In meinem Herz ist es klar dass meine Freunden dass  sie sehr nah von mir sind. Sie sind hier oder her

das macht einfach nichts. Ich wollte alles besichtigen und teilen ein paar meine Leben. Alles sagen dass ich so viel an alles achte. Aber ich denke dass sie meine Freunden sind. Ich wollte dass die anderen mit mir teilen.

Das so ich fühle mich ganz nah von alles............

dankbarkeit fuer dich liebe krystin :')

Rootless

I went to this land I thought all was so different. Was there in reality what I wanted? I feel me rootless...
I went to this land I learned the language. Was I more integrated?
I went to this land but I can't forget my roots....and at the same time I feel me rootless. All what I expected was  to discover another land another culture but my own culture miss me at that time.
I went to this land and got friends and those desoppointed me the most...even they are of my culture.
At the end I can say that each lands as its difficulties and advantages but our mother tongue and land will stay ever in your heart...because we are born there!

To Yangjiao hang up dear friend!

The way to be a good friend

Here is the recepe to be a good friend:

Mixed 1/4 of kindness 1/4 of attention 1/4 of compassion 1/4 of understanding 

(then you obtain my way to be a good friend.)

To all my penpals and to my lovely friend and 'cosine' Artha

Schreklich als Schrek :D

Gestern habe ich mit eine freundin gelacht. Man kann so schreklich wie schrek sein ja leider ...ich habe ein Freund so ist er :P. Aber er liebt mich und das ist ein echt probleme :S Ich muss ihn sagen: nein ich wollte dein Freundin sein nicht deine Frau ! Na tolles tolles Dinge zu machen wirklich scheissig :'( .....aber ich werde keine Chance mehr zu haben. Ich muss jetzt ihn erzählen!

Smile of a friend

A smile of a friend is the most important gift you can have! I love thinking that a friend are strong again with smily face. I am not woory I just understand the importance of a friend who hear and communicate! I am thanksfull to have beautifull friends ....!

Power of words

That is the most powerfull things that God give us to express ourselves! Maybe sometimes we don't know how that can be powerfull! I think about words ...words can bring joy or sadness. I ever try to remember that when I writte. I can express so much anger or pain that I fear to give pain to my friends. But it's the only way to cope with what bring me all this sadness sorrows ... I just try to tell that in a poetic way ! I have the power to break or the power to heal! Maybe in this way I am strong enough !

Fight

Fight against you. You dream of me but I never see you like a lover......should I say never talk about that with you. I just wanna go farway to find a way to hide me of your sight. I will fighting till you can understand that I am not ready to any relation. I consider you like a friend just a friend please... understand me........Please let me aloone!

THANK YOU ALL

Thank you to watcher of France Germany Russia and USA to come here :D

Energizer : Lindsay Stirling

May I introduce you Lindsay Stirling. I use often Youtube and I watch that and I find that mix betwin violin and modern sounds really good. As I am a violin fan :) I add here a video!

That violinpalyer is really a good one because she can dance with her instrument!

I wish you were here

I wish you were here. Going with me in these fields. Tell me you won't forget me. I got so many tears after trying to forget you. I dreamed of you arms but you never wanted that for me. Now someone else are in your arms.

I just tried to explain my madness but I feel me so empty without your presence. So many things can happen but should I nor think of love? Without you the life is different ....for a longtime...none will replace you. I will be alone and? I guess if I can love again maybe yes but I am not sure. My friends say to let you go.....maybe I am not able to do that. Shame on me to not forget you and believe in Love....foolish things can happen if we see who else ...can replace the person that you love the most ...

To B "I wish you luck to you and your wife"

Silence

I never been so quite till the time they died. It's the first thing that I thought tillthey died. I loose all my creativity all my soul and I sufffer so much of their abscences. I couldn't speak of anything. All my feelings were to strong to be told. Loosing someone is painfull. That really hurt even it's a normal thing to people over 80. I know want to express al that I could'nt tell to anyone  moments of fear, of angiousness. If someone tell me to stop I won't care I need that to live.

On way from other new activities

As usual people think she have also 2 diploma what nor one could you stop learning.

The merry thing is that I am able to recognize that I wanna archieve that goal to someone in my family which dont have had the privilege to be a teacher. ( my grand mum <3)

Yea I wanna teach adults not in our schools where children are so hard to understand and where the way to be respected is to yield or to punish. 

My dream is to go in germany why not USA even my english is not really good. Remarquably I prefer teaching my mother tongue french :P for foreigners who are really motivated.

I am not in fond of getting diploma but its necessary to teach in France! My postgraduate class will be the last I promise I will do till i get this !

 

Männer sind anders als Frauen?

Männer! Was für ein Wort?

Ist es wirklich dass, Frauen so anders als Männer sind?

Wie ein quatch !

ZB

Mein Gott :) ja Männer sind nur Freunden. Manchmal sie sind kindisch, sehr sehr tolles Freunden. Sie haben diese Typ und wir lachen sehr viel!

Im Gegenteil

Frauen sind zerbrechlich he? Wieso? Sie sind Mutter Frauen Arbeiterinn SIE SIND SEHR STARK STARK GENUG UM DIESE WELT ZU ÜBERLEBEN!

Können Sie nur einmal denken vorher ein Frau oder ein Mann zu kritisieren!

Anna sun video's

Up here!

Lets go back to the past where am I...now getting really hard feelings....no no that wasn't that I wanna say, maybe too much bad sensations! 

I just need to recover of a stomachache ;) maybe I need sun :D and friends ! 

Lets go to anna sun video's yea !

AnN

Poème gothique

je t'aimais 

et sur cette pierre j'écrivais 

mile fois ton nom

ces arcades fantastiques

m'appellent 

cette voute gothique

m'ensorcelle

le lierre grimpe vers les nuées

ou mon amour tu demeures à jamais

mon souffle chaud dans le vent froid

se languit de toi

je suis glacée 

et sur ta tombe je me suis affalée

une larme a perlé

sur ma joue blême

personne pour me rassurer

pour m'aimer 

je contemple la lune et me demande si j'existe encore

mon corps vacille quasi sans vie

sur ta tombe mon ami

mon amant

je vais te retrouver et t'aimer comme avant

Mon autre moi

ma chère amie que te dire
présentement je pense à toi
tu m'as si souvent accompagnée
dans la vie ou par la pensée

ma chère amie tu es cet autre moi
tout en étant toi
tu me ressembles tout de même un peu
et pourtant nous sommes bien deux

ma chère amie ma chère petite soeur
c'est à toi que je dédie ce poème de coeur

pour toi ma sam

Ma grande soeur

Tu es loin de moi je le sais
j'aimerai
partager
avec toi toutes mes pensées
seulement tu as déménagé

Tu as changé de ville pour étudier
et moi je suis restée

je me rappelle de toi
arrivant pour la première fois
dans le cours d'allemand
c'était traduction

Tu as dû rire
j'ai essayé de baragouiner chinois
et toi
tu as essayé
de me parler
tout s'est enchainé

La découverte l'une de l'autre
les échanges et l'amitié

 on dit que l'amitié ça ne se brise jamais

même si tu es loin
j'ai besoin
de toi
j'ai confiance en toi
car tu es ma grande soeur
de coeur

pour jiéjié chen :')

Talkative me !

Today a friend told me I was too talkative.
Dear friend you dont know me in real x) haha I am the terror of the shyest people...........no in reality
I am a funny person ever already to make joke or to enter in action.
I hate ennoying myself and the people !

But all my friends are shy and  appreciate me Weird weird ...

<3

Giving french courses

I came back from giving course! 

TODAY

I 

A

M

H
A
P
P
Y 

Let see why.....

I open the futur way to study to a friend

I really understand why I am so happy 

I gave my help and will surely have so much more back

To mei 

Je t'ai aimé

J'étais toujours énervée par tes petites manies de vieille femme. Aujourd'hui je me rends compte que tu as disparu...tu n'es plus là ça me fait mal. Je ne sais pas pourquoi j'ai été voir ta plaque au cimetière. Peut être faillait il que je le fasse. Peut être fallait il que je me souvienne de ce jour de Mai 2010 ou tu es partie en poussière. Déjà quelques jours auparavant une amie avait trouvé étrange que tu ne répondes pas à l'interphone.... et voilà comment on a su. Papa m'a donné ta montre que tu avais au poignet. Désormais je ne porte plus de montre...d'ailleurs aucune des miennes ne marchent. Parfois je me sens terriblement seule sans toi ...c'est drôle mais j'aimerai que tu sois là. Maintenant je sais que je t'ai aimé.

pour ma grand-mère Yvette

Missing you tight

Now you are married. 

What should I say or do against that? 

I just feel me miserably alone ....lost in the deep sea without someone to be hanging in a dream, to kiss or just to be observe. I am really sad...because some years ago I realize you are in the arms of someone else and now its true. 

What should I say or do against that? 

I try to say that I wont love again : what insane what pity to reflect like that....its just a way to protect myself. Beeing deciving you know that can be painfull... I really don't understand....why people who hear me show me their desagreement saying " you'll find him one day". I am 25 and I realize....you were the only one and i dont know if someone will come after you.

I was mad of you and that let me scare on my heart. I dont want to see you anymore already hearing from you is a little bit painfull !

Mit dir sein

Ich habe dich in Facebook verpasst. Ich braute deine Antwort wie du brautest meiner.
Ich habe dieser Zeit wirklich kein Bock zu arbeiten. Ich fühle mich ....super traurig. Ich vermisse jemand anders. Denn wenn ich habe deine Frage bekommen, habe ich gedracht " ach mensch ich hab' Kristyn verpasst'. Und während eine lange Zeit  hab' ich dich auch nicht sehr viel geschrieben. Ich war auch sehr traurig letze Dezember ohne dich München zu sehen.

JETZ MEINE LETZER WUNSCH IST MIT DIR ZU SEIN !

fuer Krystin