How to end this ?

I just guess myself
While i feel emptiness
How will this ended

I feel I have too work on it
But its like a mountain

I just wanna cry and yield
Why me why now

I have to find resilience
In myself and alone

My creative mind will save me
I fight but is that the best way to do
To overcome things I live

I am so troubling that sometimes
Cries and tears sorround me
I am resignated...
I don't have choices
But I just wanna know how to ended it