Oldies

Oldies oldies when they are calledGet back in some seconds
Inner feelings can sometimes be harsh

We forget but its coming back
The life isn't very easy
But it gave us memories
Some good some bad
It build a life made of mistakes and happiness
Pain and joy

People who survive
All their life are precious
To those who'll staying after them
Getting some memories of them
Trying to apply their values
To keep a life build as theirs




Oldies are here to remember us how to get a real and good life! To my grand mas who are resting in peace!

Island dream

Attend a party. Knowing you'll be shy. Just uncomfortable.

                            Feel you can be here. With him. BAD BAD.


Want to fly. Shut your eyes. Remember this island where you met him.

                     The sweetness of the time. The love was around.

Someone wake you up saying do you want a long drink?

Apologize to a friend

Sorry dear you,

I can't give my feeling to you. I feel something wrong between us. I consider you as regard  to some part of your own personality as my twin or brother nothing more!

I kept you last time looking at me and when I detected you eyes on me you did as if you looked somewhere else. That really hurt me each time you do so! I feel as the object of your desire and in return I know I can hurt you. I feel just friendship! I hope you too! Otherwise you'll be hurt as I was one day!
Now I am not sure I can find love again! I feel just ache and I am not self assured!

If you can understand that and try to keep our friendship alive! That will be the best you can do for me!

A.

Need

I look behind the window
The sky and the small clouds
My mind wander searching your comfort
Your arms around me
Your sweetness
Your protection

Sometimes
I think of you
You that I don't know

I wish you appear
I wish you can knock at the door
Right now
To protect myself of my inner bad thoughts

I get enough to fight alone
I get enough to feel alone
The time is passing by
And my heart stay to ache
Around me people are happy
I wanna share with you
If you can give me a heartbit again
For instance my mind wander and want badly
You by my side

when I met him

I was going through a deep storm when he appeared assuring me he'll love me. My mind was a real mess since few months. I didn't believe to anything good I saw only the black cloud not the blue sky not far away. We met weirdly by accident if I can say that.

We were at a meeting and I have Brocken my heels in the stairs. He was just after me and came to rescue me when he saw me falling. His wonderful blue eyes retained my attention!

He decide to offer me a long drink after this long day of work. What I didn't expect is that he was a real Don Juan. His blue eyes expressed a light of love, a sincere and optimistic look on me. First I prefer to stay cautious then he made me delight our time together.

Then we exchange our phone numbers and I stepped back into the real life. I came back home and totally forgot him.

As it was the cold vortex in NY I was home. I took this time to care about me and to build back my self confidence. I was delighting a good book when I received a call.

-hi you remember me?

I had the chance that his christian name appear on my phone.

-yes charlie how are you doing?
-I am fine only one person miss me in LA

I was blushing and didn't know how to answer him.

-you are in LA I live in NY. It is cold by us I am home for a while I think!
-I think we have to meet one more time! What did you think about?
-I don't know maybe. I just will have to do at work. I hope to step back soon.
-are you saying you'll be busy? Are you not thinking of me since last time?
-it isn't so easy. I mean we don't know each other well. I saw love on your eyes but I can't afford myself this for instance.

I played like Elisabeth character in pride and prejudice of J.Austen

-it isn't necessary to say that I am in love with you. I think you felt it.
-...I just want to reflect I am really sensitive I am lacking of confidence. Nothing against you!
-I will wait you till you are ok to that! Patience is the must Have of any human beeing!
- I want you call me sometimes.
-Alright then I will do this.

After his phone call I didn't know what to do or think. I was shaken and realized that the light of love in his eyes was true. Deep inside me I felt something but I wanted to improve if out were love or not.

Two weeks ago he called me back. I was delighting he did what he promised to me. That was a time of fullness. I felt specially loved I felt love to him in return. He didn't spend much time with me on phone but we decided we will meet next march in central park. Is that not the park of all lovers in NY?

Power of writing!

She wrote so much things that she lost her senses. This time she was seating at her desk keeping time to reflect about what she wanted to write.

She floated in a kind of cotony sky, she was absolutely not on the real time. She forgot how she could be so creepy unconscious of the reality. She thought she was missing a half life in the real world. All people marry all people settle all people think to get a great job all people really live, she really left this.

She wasn't disturbed by that she only said that she has had to DREAM while people live. She accepted this in between which is comfortable to not admit the rules of the real world.

Otherwise thought she I have had to dye many time. Dying of love dying of betrayal dying of loneliness dying behind death of other beloved people.

Behind her sheets she was contemplating the power of writing saying all this keep me away from death!

The way he appear

AI look behind the window a kind of small way waving till the road. The door at the end indicate it. I awaited a friend and the bell which will announce his arrival.

I am in love of him, the kind of things you get just one time in our life, the heartbeat, the hand wett and the feeling you can't hide your feelings.

The green of the garden quiet me a few time! I was pleasing to meet him after the several months longing. He come from London where he work as an architect. I was busy working as journalist to a local newspaper...I haven't seen how the time have past fastly.

The birds singing and the marvelous blue sky make the day perfect. I was delighted to receive Mark at home by such a weather.

Suddenly my heart feel something I keep my eyes watching on the road. A black Carera porche was coming furiously on the road. I think that was only people who are going through the road but it wasn't. The car stop behind my doorway. I get a look at who it was. A young blond girl get out the car and Mark follow. He was well dress even in casual. But something change in its way to behave. He was more childish joking with the girl while they ring the bell. I answer and let them come.

I just guess myself who was the girl. As a good friend I welcome him in then the threshold. Mark explained me that Clea was his coworker met in NY a few weeks ago. She wanted to visit england and he thought that the country in the Cambridgeshire could be great to discover. So he got the idea of coming.

I knew it wasn't just his colleague but more than that. It wasn't the first I saw one girl with him. But as eachtime I felt badly a kind of heart break. Mark never look at my reactions!

Only the way he appear and the time past with him is like a fresh blowing air to me. A break in the life's hardship!

love is an evolving matter?

Love is an evolving matter said she. What does that mean to her? In the past she was properly in love now on I can't say it.

I follow her since a long time to see that she try to hide her disappointment. She was only once deep in love and never feel the same now!

I know she do her best to not saying the deep feeling which surround her every time people speak about love family and so! She feel empty and not useful. She sometimes say to me I hate myself so much and retaining her tears say I loose all my friends because they settle a family. I keep focus on the best of what I give but really I get enough of it!

I give her tenderly my shoulder and say I know all that you just say. I try to calm her while she weep!

Wonderful fear

My wonderful fear
Let me wake up in the middle of the night
My cheat move faster

Calm down said my brain
My body do the contrary
My eyes are full of tears

My wonderful fear
Let me feel me insecure and alone
I can't describe what I feel to people
I prefer praying God the only one who can understand me

I can shine fine
But inside I feel dying
I do my best to fight
To stay positive
When people speak of hurtful matters
At that time I miss some friends
To get a shoulder to cry

My wonderful fear
I promise you to fight and win
I won't wake up in the middle of the night to cry
Because I want you away

Missing the train

I have missed the train
To get the same life as all my friends
I feel extremely weak
I think I have to be back to the oldies
When my heart could beat to him
When I got this innocent eyes
When I have power to fight
When I was self assured

I have missed the train
And I have a kind of regret
Because the world go so fast
Because I feel old
Because I let my friends go

I just guess myself
What train will come next?

Apologize

Hi people,

I didn't write here for a moment. I have done a new booklet of poem in PDF layout so ...that is why I was busy. Right now a new one is in process!

So ...I find back old sheet of paper as i did in the past that is why my blog isn't full of work. Maybe I will add some soon be patient!