Oasis

A precious talk
A warming smile
A helping hand
While you live hardship
Is that friends give you

You were there
When they needed
Now they want to repay you

This is like oasis in the desert
A small time to keep quiet
To get a rest
Before the next battle

To my friends new or old thanks for the support you give me ! May God give you strength too!

Don't!

Don't forget
Don't weep
Don't mourn

Life can be happiest
If you have your friends by your side

Don't pretend
Don't be shy

Because people have to know you
Even that mean bad side of yourself
Real friends never leave you

Don't forget to share
Don't forget to smile
Don't forget to leave fully

Because life don't wait to be lived fully!

11 in the morning

11 in the morning
Friday

Missing friends but...hoping
Making the program of my day even there is a very grey sky
Welcoming my stress as usual and quiet as possible

11in the morning
Friday

People speak about what they will do
While you dream of peace

Life will be

I welcome the life has it is
I have to stay strong despite bad mood
And even I loose my temper or get bad thought s

Life will be better soon
Life will move
All depend of me

I have to hope
I have to fight one more time
Even bad energies

Life will be better soon
Life will move
All depend of me

I have to welcome my feelings
I have to plan projects
I have to find back confidence

Life will be better soon
Life will move
All depend of me

A part of me

A small light
After a long night
A drink but light
After a fight

Never longer annoyed
Never blind
Never unhappy

Just time to recover
Just time to restore
A part of me!

QUestioning

I want too write in french maybe because it is my mother tongue.
Maybe I can find the fine words I don't use in English.
My mind is messy nothing can remedy.
I have lost my hope and smile for a while to give you these lines.
Maybe you won't understand what I say here.
Maybe you won't feel the same as me.

Some of my friends fullfill their dreams while I forget mine.
The depth of my sorrows can't be describe by this lines.
If I find the way to tell you will you hear me?
Will you understand me without judgment?

I build up a dick wall behind me a retreat where I can live alone.
I build up this to protect you from my pain.
I sometime think it is better to hide that death can be the better way
To say I can't no more.
But is that so? Do you understand me?

I am in a turmoil a thunderstorm.
I am feeling not at the right place.
I am not my real self.
I am the dangerous one to me.

Maybe you didn't imagine that.
But each people have a bad side!

dark clouds

I habe never been so far
In the pain
Maybe it is not the way

I see only dark clouds on the sea
As I left the shore
Now I am in the storm
And I don't see the end

My mind wander between both feeling
Joy and pain
I feel my breath short my mind creepy
My body miss some energy
To fight back

My mind don't want to dream
My mind don't want to tell
What it really happen
When my face is rainy

My mind feel tiredness
And I wish to see ray of light
On the blue sky
Happiness on my heart and a smile

A morning in New Orléans

This morning I just wake up and take my tablet. I go on the music plateforme I use commonly. I find an artist called Leila Mc Calla.

I just close my eyes direction Louisiana French English part of US. Where the music is blue of blues, the country side is full of swamps on the rivers. We can hear creole, french, English where people wonder why french love their state so much! We are cousins specially where I live and the regions nearby our ancestors could be the same. Cajun spirit let the frenchies dream we forget the old languages not there. Probably the accent they used long time ago here facinate us !

receiving emails

Thank you dear crazy friend to be right by my side even far! Thank you for all the good memories we shared together and we will share! Ur ann'


I awaited her email since a long time! Thinking about her! When I met her I was in bad conditions I only get the virus called depression. She brighten a part of my days. The year ended...I have ever hated winter she was coming at the good time.

I don't know how to describe my friend lyn. She is only someone I cherish more like a real old sister. I can say that she live in a country so far away of mine in south america. The only word I can use as she ever do is crazy to describe her.

She is also introverted as a lot of the friend I love to be with. I discover the one who have similarities with me in some points. More I talked to her more I felt understand! That was marvelous I didn't felt that with someone since a long time!

I am blessed to live in the area of the technologies such as INTERNET even I am not of the Y generation. I use it commonly to communicate and I didn't imagine that can be useful to use it to stay in touch with american citizen!

I just miss presence of the friends I love the most! I can't travel anymore! That let me become mad...so writing help to not suffer too much as it ever did before..?

when I met him part2

Chris called me to say he was arrived near the central park entrance. I was late and just thought about his blue eyes.

When I finally arrived to him I just closed my eyes to get the kiss. I felt his lip in mine and then the tongue. That was deliciously wet !

He took my hand and we made a walk in the park. It was a clear and warm afternoon. I felt so happy and blessed to be with him. I realized how I was in love and how that deepen my feminity.

The evening sorry but I didn't remember as I drank too much. I was just laughing each time...

When I woke up the following morning I was really in a in between. I realized he was by my side by hearing his breath. I just took a look at him, I followed his curves with my eyes. I just remarqued I couldn't remember what happened last night. But that wasn't so bad to me.

When I came back with coffee he was almost awake and able to give me a smile.

-Amy...
-Yes
-Why have we waited so much time?
-I don't know my dear
-so...
-a women who was hurted several times loose self confidence and dignity. That was so to me. I can't explain you but...you are the one who trust me only with your regard. You cannot imagine what I felt before! I ignored what love really was!
-when I saw you with your broken heels I was worried about you. Suddenly you looked at me and... and...I felt something incredible something I have lost a long time ago...LOVE!

We smile gently. I looked from the window! He was taking my hips caressing my body quietly. I felt protected and loved.

We moved to eat in a small bar near my house we ate baggles. Then we went to the theater I didn't remember which film it was.
Maybe I habe letter go my bad emotions concerning love. I felt so different than before. Chris brought me things I didn't expected... And I won't deny I didn't need this!

process of a day

Well time is time...right ?!

Oka let me see what you have done today.

First sunny day
Second taking sun
Thirdly beeing with people who stressed me (arch argh!)
Finally laid on my bed seeing some cartoon

What a routine day :-$ :-$ !!