With music all come in mind (dreaming is collapsing sountrack of Inception) : "if the world end"!

 Please lets  run the video soundtrack and then read

I rund run run because all will collapse and to save my life I have no other choice what will bring me that?
Already scared but I run somewhere somewhere but where exactly ? Lost yeas surely hanging on to my life...
what should I do otherweise? Just a moment to protect me and pray god to be safe then back to the run all buildings get so scary having stumbling all destroying like during the 9/11 I don't see anything else ...but I run ....run run My family was slept before I began to run and find a way to protect myself some people where dead ...my eyes wouldn't see anymore all that we see now its like a nightmare without end...
Let me be safe God! I hear noises but no time to see I find a street more quiet and try to find a place to stay and recover a few minutes  I don't know how i find this group of people ...they were totally lost some crying some others were injured but we all together want to survive we must go out this town by any means
the day after the beginning of the collapse we were outside of the city I haven't had regrets to let that city behind me I go in the right way after a better futur I ran and I am sure I will find it....nothing matter I am safe....

Its just what I feel when I hear the soundtrack of Inception a mervelous film and the music was made by Hans Zimmer one of my preferate composer of movie's soundtracks 

Ghost of the past

The memory of you come in my mind
Like a Ghost to protect me
Against him
Even I know that you are now married
Nothing none will break me one more time
After loving one and only time 
Just to assure me you are fine
Just to assure me my battle against him
Isn't in vain
To grabe my teenage time
To forget who I was
To build what I will be

The memory of you come in my mind
Before I go to sleep
Like a dream a ghost of my past
Like I know you never can be mine
He won't have me too
That is what I promise you

W H Y ?

W H Y
all friends can smile
beeing comfort

W H Y
all can find love and happiness

W H Y
all are simply them

W H Y
am I so hesitating?

W H Y
can I be myself ?

W H Y
must I say you NO?

W H Y
should I ever fight?

W H Y
tell me W H Y

W H Y
W H Y
so many questions and no so much answer
....the life of a human is made of many questions
that only God can answer

Become like tiger

I become like tiger
When you look at me
I tell me why you choose me
The thing the most unbareble thing is people
Fake to understand you are in love with me
I want to hide myself when I see you
I am crazy I want to beat you
I am like a tiger
I am so nervous when I should be with you
I can't bear all people telling
He is kind and funny
What the F. if i can't bear it
I just want to male my life free


with the vaccines -Tiger blood song

Just telling you

The truth
Is that I telling you my feelings
And you don't seem to understand my will
So that let me be angry
To let you think or believe I am made for you
only with your eyes you terrify me
What must I make
Just going farway from you
And pray you can forget me

Take it

Take time
Take joy
Take the life as it is given by God

Take the moment to stop yourself and see mothernature
Take time to see your children growing
Take time to smile
Take time to give and you will receive
Take care of the others

Take joy in every moment
Take joy in what you do
Take joy in your ways

Take the life and try to not mess it up
Take the life with philosophy
Take the life to say behind god

I take it!

Selfreliance after loosing someone intitled: "Behind you"

( I wrote this to forget to remember to honor people I loved the most I hope getting understanding by all
it is just to gain selfassurance !)

Dear grand-ma'
I don't know how to explain but I have to.
Now I really need you and you are gone. I am deeply upset I told mum last year before my depature to Germany :"mum she will dying I will be there". All was happening as I told. Intuition bad feelings and thoughts,
No, I knew you was ill and I didn't want you suffered too much.
If you could know that I follow my studies as postgraduate you would be proud of me ! You told me why a practical diploma in two years? Granma just because I needed to grow up before going to university!

I just remember last year this febraury 28th 2011 getting these mail saying you were dead...that hurt me nor now...to remember this beach the sand the coat the pain ...our family united ...I was so upset to be the only one to grabe you as grand children and the youngest cousine of the family coming from Berlin. Now you rest in peace with grand pa' I never knew. I never guessed how that was painful to grabe him. I never ask you anything about our family's secret. I want to ignore this pain but I know it's not a good idea. I have to face my pain and I have to tell you goodbye.

Behind you I swear to be happy in my life and to do things you can be proud of.
After this line I have to say you goodbye and thank you to told me NEVER GIVE UP!

The mountains

You walk
Lost in your reflection
Staying or going

Your heart say staying
And the mountains nearby
Are colored in red and blue
Colors of sunset

Every time you speak about
Your return home my heart is hurt
 I just shut my eyes
And see this sunset

I think about you
your life there
And remember  the moments i got with you

Our dreams
Life's crossing
I just want to remember
The time we got together
Behind a sunset in the mountains



To my dear Chenbo we know both will missing :* :*

Missing!

 

Old ID pictures hanging on my wall grand ma' and grand dad (dead before i was born) nearby my own picture because we can't forget those we love 

Miss grand ma' :'(

Pain

Pain let you down
After it you are more stronger
Pain let you down
But a friend is ever with you
Pain let you down
And push you high up
Pain let you down
But He will give you back joy

Ein Brief fuer K.W

Tausend mal
Habe ich es versucht...

Jetzt ist es Zeit dir zu erzählen
Ich hatte Freunden
Sie waren ein echter Schatz fuer mich
Und Sie sind umgezogen
Ich habe gedacht dass,
Ich ein Loch in meine Herz hatte

Dannach habe ich gereist
In ein Land dass du gut kennst
Und da habe ich gelebt
Dann musste ich nach Hause zurück kehren
Aber  ich habe sie verlassen
Glaub' mir ich weisse genau was passiert
Wenn du vermisst deine Freunden
Ich weisse genau was passiert
Wenn du weinst nach schlechte Gedanken

Ich wollte nur diese Linie schreiben
weil du wie meine andere Freunden bist
Ein echter Schatz

fuer  KW ich habe dich lieb' ich werde immer da sein <3

One of my favorite songs: tell me why M.I.A

Calling you

Calling you yeas
You girls and womens around the world
A fist high in the sky

I am born in a land when I have
Rights to be free to choose to be me
Its for you those are ignore
Who surffer silently
All over the world
I understand we are a POWER
The world see your will
Don't matter how

My power is to write
To tell what I have to say
And calling you saying
 Stay proud head up
Fist high in the sky
I am a child of the human rights
I am born about 300 years after in the same land
That we call FRANCE

I am calling you
Saying
If someone harass you
Someone betrayed you
Fight the fist high in the sky
Be proud to be yourself
Because you bring children in the world
Because you are the futur of the Humanity
A figure of the kindness
But none can have not respect you

So I am calling you
Saying head up
Fist high in the sky
Because you have your place
And none have to spoil you!

Soory

I beg you pardon
Pardon to not have telling you the truth
That day I wasn't fine
To tell you
I didn't love you

I must have doing it
But I am absolutly sure
You wouldnt have an heartbreak
I know what you feel
I felt the same to someone
With no return
I know that is painfull
I am absolutly free without love

I hope you will understand!

My 19 centimeters' scare

It is my pain and my suffering I wanted to express I am not a drawer but I love using colors. I really have scares on my body that sometimes let me sad sometimes I remember I am alive because of this operation in Emergency after a car accident. I thank god to be alive and to gave me the power to recover after 3 months nightmare in hospital and to get my Alevel. Two years ago I got money but I don't cost anything I am a life its most expensive that all the assurance gave me. My life is priceless ... my scares are the testimony of that!

To be a good poët

To be a good poët you have to feel pain in your heart (almost one day in your life) and to feel empathy
after that you have to choose words to express your suffering. In the moments of peace you will give one day to your friends and beeing happy to get though your own pains to help them!

I got my postgrade :D

I am postgraduate OMG yesterday many good news come to me ^^ the postgraduation and the theoritical exam of my driving lesson!(July 18th) I hope i can have it only because my car wait for me (grand ma's car I am lucky) ;) I hope to get it !!