No way to be romantic again!!!!

I cannot be yours
My heart Brocken in many pieces is not in full recovery
I don't know what to think letting all that going
Being reluctant you cannot be mine

Thinking I am not a real woman
Even I am surely to some others a very good friend

I messed up to fall in love with you
I keep for myself this pain
Love is blind do we say commonly

I am a jerk I was mistaken
I won't be romantic as normal girls are
I will be more pragmatic
I won't let me lead only by physical appearance

love left me a kind of bitter sensation
I couldnt believe in this
As it let me so sad and also so in confident about me

So romantic isn't a state of mind I can afford myself
Because I cannot believe in love again