Questionning

Dark ocean
Blue tears

Letting go the sadness in fond of my heart

Painting the white canevas
Of colorful thinking
But

Why ow why my heart are you too heavy?
Why I feel alone in the crowd?
Why should have been so?
Why feel I deep inside me hell thinking back?

I want to stop everything
But these thoughts come back
Insisted
Ring at the door

Ow why god am I so sensitive?
Why think I to death while I love and live my life?
Why that weird feelings are back yet?

I will ever fight
Till a rainbow come
Till my tears dry up
Life goes on

...

It is like ache
Painful
Its hurt like chaire cut
Its hurt like crazy

I feel it deep inside me
It is like a hurt
A scare which not heald

Even words can't explain what I feel
At that time I want to be somewhere else
But I can't
I let some going
I hope just they won't forget me

Romantic hope

The dawn is beautiful
Like my melancholia
The ruins behind me
Let me feel free

I search a place
Where I used to be
To comfort my painful heart

I see the see
Not fairway
The quiet trees
On the cemetery

I find peace some hours
Will it ever be so?
My heart is heavy
Like a grey stone
My hands are cold
I feel me small and useless
I want to die
But something don't let me do this
It is HOPE

Walking near the river

(Here is what I call love song. Love lead people to death. It is only a creation ok!)

I walk near the river
Thinking of you
I never told you
I loved you
Now you are gone

I walk near the river
And see my fears
Beeing reality

I'm gone to the river
People will cry and weep
You let me such bitter feeling
To be nothing

At that beautiful morning
A walker found me dead
Your heart remember me well
But I have ceased to live

Praying

Praying you
Is curing my soul
I feel understanding
And answer when I need
O Jah

You see my heart my feelings
I know you can't let me go such thing
It is only my heart which suffer too much
I am sinner a simple human living in a weaked world
Save me from my bad feelings help me to not let them deep inside me

Let me be secure with you
Let me rejoice in you
Let me find my way to happiness
Let me forget bad things that used to be in the past
Erase from my heart all my worries
And let me go far from what I expect

Bad time again

No words
Weirds feelings
Just lost in the midst of nowhere
Loosing all my dreams

Dark is my heart
When it is fate and pride to say
I am alright with smile

Stop me before I go sofar
Don't fear what I say

Its just a weird time
Where sensitivity explode
Where I feel Not real myself
I am only in a nightmare

Daily violence

I heard him crying through the walls
It was after his woman
Some weeks ago I already heard him yelling
But this time that was worse
He probably beat her

I saw her in the entrance one day
So sad and really thin
Like I never saw her before
I was also feelings the violence of his words
And thought about his small daughter

I only hear daily violence
But that beat me
Some say its just words
Sometimes words do worse than a punch
I felt sad to her
I saw her much happier single as now
I hope it can cease to her

This is what I live today from my flat I hear yelling from the first floor my neighbours... I UNDERSTAND THE NIGHTMARRE some women live daily!