Thursday, June 14, 2012

Just ...a sign of you



Sometimes I wish a sign of you
Where and who you are
Only God know the time the hours when you will come

Sometimes I wish just a sign
To love again

Maybe you are near me
But I don't see you
Maybe you are there

Writting to you

As you ask me I will follow this way no matter what happens in my life
Cause I know you read all  what I post here
And you feel I understand you
I not only the laughing girl you know
I also try to be loyal and nearby my friends
That is why I will go on
And write because I need it too


To K.W sweetheart hold on !

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Walking on the street

I am walking  in some streets I use to go
I see you I find you cute
But your girlfriend is by you side

I am walking somewhere on this street
And I find me so stupid
To be without goals

Walking in some streets I use to go
I loose myself
Crying after love

But there are so much things to do
Somewhere else

No motivation

I am not motivated since these last few days WTF really I feel me really depressed not in my head but in my body. Cure all must be the solution caring friends ok but ...what the matter if I think I am nothing (really bad bad thoughts) I forget to move to act to behave. A friend of mine told me why are you not taking part of our talk ...we were about 12 people in the same room. I just reply to him because I don't say nothing...I want to be quiet (normally I am a talkative person ) and observe the others acting. My friend give me a eye blick what means :' I understand you are not going well'. I just try to check what I am what I ever want to be and what I will be. Creepy isn't it? 25 years old and nor in the teenage crise ...that is hard to cope with ...so my lack of motivation remind me who I was 7 years ago : Fragile, dark minded and with the feelings none can understand me! God it is really hard to go through that. But maybe you can understand what I mean in that post!

Crossing the road

I have had this feelings that the life is this long way
But not so long when there is  a crossing
And new people to walk with

Some others met before miss me a lot
But all time when come back
They are with me

That is why I love the crossing in my road

That is the way I ever think

Monday, June 11, 2012

Darkest side of myself

I ever hid the part of myself where weakness are the most visible. Don't ask me why. Maybe because
I hate to have it. Surrounded by my own perception of the reality I forget easily that friends go trough the
weakness of their friends. They ever understand and never judge. They are here in case of you need a caring attention to weep or to say all what comes in your mind. I remember some of my friends just hearing me sharing a lot with me at high school. I never find that after... But they are by my side they know how I am how I was ...our friendship was the best things I ever had there are nor here ...in my LIFE to help me to protect myself of my darkside

TO Aude and Audrey vous êtes toujours là pour moi je vous adore <3